I was such the victim of life.
“It is so unfair that I have to be unwell. Why do I experience acute & chronic pain..?
Why me..? What did I do to deserve this..?
Other people are well & live pain free lives, why not me?!”
Over & over this was the question I posed to life. I hated life for serving me up with such a cruel disposition. I was so pissed about it.. jaded that my nervous system was constantly inflamed.. bla bla bla..
I hated it so much. I hated my body for letting me down. I wanted a refund on life. I was feeling done!
I did not believe that my body would support me through life. I do not know where that belief came from but it became my ‘mantra’ & my life flowed from it. Yeah, I was experiencing some really bad health stuff. And yes it was massively ongoing & it was devastating crushing for me. And so long as I had that mantra, that is what would continue to turn up for me at every corner cos that is what I believed..
About 18 years ago I decided “Right, I got myself to this level of ill health so now I can get myself out of it – one day at a time!!”
-Was that hard, hell yes!
-The health challenges were absolutely real despite my efforts.
-Some days I fell hard into my pain & I cried a bucket load & went into ‘poor me’.. but I did get up again & again & again.
-Part of the truth is, I still experience deep discomfort often.
-Truthfully I’ve taken a large amounts of drugs to sedate my nervous system so that I could in some way be present for myself & my children.
-I’ve spent a fortune on alternate health practices & high nutrition intake.
-I’ve had to experiment a lot with food to find out what suits my gut as well.
“WHAT CHANGED? I DID!”
-I have done everything to be well.
-I have given everything to be well.
-Everything I have done towards better health has helped me to be well.
-I have spent time getting to know myself..
-I have on many occasions had to make friends with myself & the life I was living.
-I’ve had to focus on good mental health as well. Severe pain had eaten away at my ability to concentrate, be present or sleep well.
-I’ve spent heaps of time searching for what MY BLUEPRINT OF FULL HEALTH looks like & feels like for me.
-It has been lots of trial & error.
-Now my mind is my ally & no longer my enemy.
THE TAKE AWAY FROM THIS LEARNING–
-I know that mental health is of paramount importance to me. It is the secret to full body health.
-I’m able to have COMPASSION towards others who present with ongoing pain.
-I get it..! I get the unfairness of it.. I get that it is a thief of time.. I get that it is the thief of relaxation.. I get that it is the constant for some.. I get that it feels unfair..
I GET ALL OF THAT!
I GET THAT EVERYDAY IS DIFFERENT & HAS TO BE TREATED AS SUCH!!
What do you get about life that you thought no one else understood..?
Look around….we are all human having our own experience of life..?
What do you want from life..? GO GET IT 😁🤓🤩
So in short, my injuries in life don’t hinder me, they make me a better person & a far better teacher.
The experience, in many ways has given me perspective & understanding towards otherS.
And Truthfully, if I continued to believed I am hindered by life, thats what will turn up for me.
I am constantly resetting what I believe about myself. Its a daily choice.
GOOD LUCK WITH YOU X X X